exhale.

inhale.

where are the warning labels for life? the manual i was supposed to be given at birth? the detailed instructions that should be tattooed on everyone's backs? i look at my kid nephew, at my godson, at my best friend's daughter, and my best friend's son... and think "how do i save them?" how do we keep them from feeling the pain and fear of our lowest lows, yet let them live freely and passionately? there are things my parents never taught me, i wish they had. now that i've experienced them, i can see in their eyes that at some point they did too. so many things unspoken. would i have learned from them these lessons or are we all destined to these trials? how much more is there to learn? i've been told time and time again that the end justifies the means, i've seen it, i understand the adage, but i question the ultimateness of it.

sleep depravation

Sometimes it seems like I can never crack down and get anything done. I have trouble motivating myself to be productive. Yet, when I try to go to sleep at night, my head runs and runs and runs, a mile a minute, stressing about this and that, making lists for tomorrow, and cataloging what didn't get done today... I can't fall asleep. I cant shut my head off. So I lay here, awake, doing nothing, because its too late to run errands, everything is closed, everyone's asleep. At some point, I'll finally fall asleep, only to wake up later than I wanted to or needed to tomorrow, and fall behind even more.

Really? Can you blame the guy?

FORT WAYNE, Ind. (May 13) - Officials say a suspected drug dealer who led police on a 90 mph chase in Indiana was arrested after he stopped suddenly at a Taco Bell parking lot.
Fort Wayne police Sgt. Mark Walters says 36-year-old Jermaine Askia Cooper told officers he "knew he was going to jail for a while" and wanted to get one last burrito.
Cooper was held without bail on four counts of dealing cocaine, one count of resisting arrest by fleeing and other charges.
A voicemail mailbox for a listing for a Jermaine Cooper in Fort Waine was full and not accepting messages.
Police say the chase began Tuesday after officers spotted Cooper, who was wanted on other charges, and tried to pull him over.

Is it weird that I know at least a handful of people who would probably do the same thing if they were in this situation? God bless taco bell!

this made me laugh...

and then i felt a little guilty.

I Hate...

cellphones... and cellphone companies,and the fact that I feel naked if I don't have mine on me... Ugh.

Facebook... An alternative to smoking?

Anything to keep my hands occupied.

I Heart The Exterminators!

So I found this little gem at 2:30am...... The Exterminators on A&E. It's about a family who.... yep, exterminates. They're based in Louisiana, so they get some funny request, and they're pretty hillbilly, in a fun-loving/ goofy way, not the dirty white trash way... The best part is how genuinely excited the main trapper Billy gets! Gotta love a man who's excited about rodents! Check it out!

I LOVE THIS SONG

YEAH YEAH YEAHS
"ZERO"

Bustin caps with my brownies at the range