it's a sub-culture i'll never really understand... i'll dabble, toes in, test the waters... here and there and here. but it's not for me, and as far as i can see it doesn't really suit anyone. lingo, ideologies, bonding? i just see excuses and escapes and running... circling. listen in, fly on the wall. every now and again, i get it, i see it, i've done it... but beyond that? i dont want to judge, i just dont want to be.

i knew this going in.

if all the rain drops were lemondrops and gumdrops...

i love the rain
but not always the down time
me and my thoughts
and the wonder leaking in...

makes me tap my feet...

words, followed by words..

i haven't written here in a bit.
i haven't written anything in a bit.
a new year...
a lot has passed. a lot has changed. ups and downs and ups, and here i stand, upright, on my feet. every day i learn something new. mostly, i'm learning about me. this year is committed to preparation. i'm getting ready for something big, something huge. planning and preparation... do it, do it, do it. work my ass off and make it happen. it's gonna be sooo worth it.