Having one of those nights
the kind when sleep seems like the only escape
but tomorrow feels just as frightening.
Thursday, October 24, 2013
Friday, October 4, 2013
Monday, September 2, 2013
just when you think you've figured out everything, when you feel the tug of reigns pulling within your grip, that's when the road bends and your footing gives. how odd false security can be. how odd it is that when you finally stop feeling threatened by the world around, the threats begin to grow inside.
control is a word my children will never know.
control is a word my children will never know.
Tuesday, May 14, 2013
she tried to close her eyes to the sound. perhaps, just maybe, that physical movement would translate into a disconnection between space and time and cause a break. something. anything. it was wishful thinking, she knew it all too well. her thought had always been wishful. she'd learned to aim low after so many years of wishing. in this moment her greatest wish was for silence. but wasn't it the sound of this silence that was driving her mad? everything had become so convoluted, who could truly know? there was a place she disappeared to at times like these. a memory that was so deeply burned into her flesh that recalling took such little effort she could bring it forward even in the blurriest of chaos. she hated to do it, she hated to fall back to this. yet, sometimes it was the only reminder that she'd ever been a living entity. and in this moment she tried to remember when pain had become the escape.
Monday, May 13, 2013
Wednesday, May 1, 2013
Thursday, October 11, 2012
insomnia is an odd thing.
it's productive in the most counterproductive of ways.
mine always seems riddled with self-criticism.
doubt.
frustration.
and, yet, things get done. conclusions are reached.
then i blink my eyes
and it's tomorrow.
i think that some nights i'm just afraid of the potential for dreams.
there is a thick grey haze between black and white.
it's productive in the most counterproductive of ways.
mine always seems riddled with self-criticism.
doubt.
frustration.
and, yet, things get done. conclusions are reached.
then i blink my eyes
and it's tomorrow.
i think that some nights i'm just afraid of the potential for dreams.
there is a thick grey haze between black and white.
Friday, September 21, 2012
Sunday, September 9, 2012
the world spins without stopping, just like the clock.
it's amazing how everything behind disappears when you're walking forward.
only when you stop, turn around
does it creep back into vision
every now and again, when you take a sharp turn
catch a glimpse from the corner of your eye.
nothing chases the earth
she spins...
it's a wonder how bits and pieces remain under the flesh
motivation and fear in their own turn
i've never been this important before.
it's amazing how everything behind disappears when you're walking forward.
only when you stop, turn around
does it creep back into vision
every now and again, when you take a sharp turn
catch a glimpse from the corner of your eye.
nothing chases the earth
she spins...
it's a wonder how bits and pieces remain under the flesh
motivation and fear in their own turn
i've never been this important before.
Thursday, August 16, 2012
Tuesday, July 31, 2012
and there came a moment when i realized that i no longer wanted to run from my problems.
instead, every last ounce of my existence desired to run at them, head-on, kicking and screaming, wielding an arsenal of lessons learned and mistakes made.
and i wondered. is this growth? is this freedom?
it was my heart that answered. "this is faith. this is confidence. this is the moment when you truly understand: you are worth fighting for."
i turned and faced the sun, letting the heat pass through me.
instead, every last ounce of my existence desired to run at them, head-on, kicking and screaming, wielding an arsenal of lessons learned and mistakes made.
and i wondered. is this growth? is this freedom?
it was my heart that answered. "this is faith. this is confidence. this is the moment when you truly understand: you are worth fighting for."
i turned and faced the sun, letting the heat pass through me.
Friday, July 13, 2012
and unanswerable questions begin to answer themselves. the why's, the how's...
there comes a moment when the mind opens wider than the eyes
and somewhere inside, where darkness reigned, a light sparks
and you realize that this moment could have never been without the pain
and the weight of those sleepless nights
and a million fallen tears
slowly fade into gratitude.
we provide for the universe what we desire to receive
without veils and pretense
only the truest of intentions are rewarded.
there comes a moment when the mind opens wider than the eyes
and somewhere inside, where darkness reigned, a light sparks
and you realize that this moment could have never been without the pain
and the weight of those sleepless nights
and a million fallen tears
slowly fade into gratitude.
we provide for the universe what we desire to receive
without veils and pretense
only the truest of intentions are rewarded.
Monday, July 9, 2012
Thursday, July 5, 2012
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
Saturday, June 30, 2012
Friday, June 29, 2012
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
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