and there came a moment when i realized that i no longer wanted to run from my problems.
instead, every last ounce of my existence desired to run at them, head-on, kicking and screaming, wielding an arsenal of lessons learned and mistakes made.
and i wondered. is this growth? is this freedom?
it was my heart that answered. "this is faith. this is confidence. this is the moment when you truly understand: you are worth fighting for."

i turned and faced the sun, letting the heat pass through me.

sometimes, when you navigate by the stars, the days can feel a bit daunting...

and you kissed away the fear...

and unanswerable questions begin to answer themselves. the why's, the how's...
there comes a moment when the mind opens wider than the eyes
and somewhere inside, where darkness reigned, a light sparks
and you realize that this moment could have never been without the pain
and the weight of those sleepless nights
and a million fallen tears
slowly fade into gratitude.

we provide for the universe what we desire to receive
without veils and pretense
only the truest of intentions are rewarded.

when she opened her eyes, nothing happened. nothing changed. the world did not stop, the skies did not fall, there were no ashes, there were no flames. and still she existed. and there she laid, unharmed.

and then something breaks
something inside gives
the ledge falls
and for a moment you are weightless

Last night, for the first time in over a year, I actually laughed in my dreams.
Maybe this is what healing looks like.