these are the things that are on my mind....

these are the things that are on my mind....

Thursday, October 24, 2013

Having one of those nights
the kind when sleep seems like the only escape
but tomorrow feels just as frightening.

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Monday, September 2, 2013

just when you think you've figured out everything, when you feel the tug of reigns pulling within your grip, that's when the road bends and your footing gives. how odd false security can be. how odd it is that when you finally stop feeling threatened by the world around, the threats begin to grow inside.
control is a word my children will never know.

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

she tried to close her eyes to the sound. perhaps, just maybe, that physical movement would translate into a disconnection between space and time and cause a break. something. anything. it was wishful thinking, she knew it all too well. her thought had always been wishful. she'd learned to aim low after so many years of wishing. in this moment her greatest wish was for silence. but wasn't it the sound of this silence that was driving her mad? everything had become so convoluted, who could truly know? there was a place she disappeared to at times like these. a memory that was so deeply burned into her flesh that recalling took such little effort she could bring it forward even in the blurriest of chaos. she hated to do it, she hated to fall back to this. yet, sometimes it was the only reminder that she'd ever been a living entity. and in this moment she tried to remember when pain had become the escape.

Wednesday, May 1, 2013

A couple months ago you asked me why we stopped being friends. i told you the truth, as i understood it then.
but tonight i really uncovered the truth.
the ignorance felt better.

Tuesday, April 16, 2013