write these words
to an empty room
to a hollow void.
send them out
into time
into space
into her absence.
everything stained with tears
and everything so broken.
spinning
round and round
all is lost.
so much fucking loss.
from limb to limb
torn
apart.
searching for something
anything
to make sense of it all
to cushion this fall from grace.
pleading with a god
who left my side
so long ago.
begging for mercy
for deliverance
for one day
outside this place.

god dammit.